Mr. Hubby
is traveling a lot these days. He's been commuting interstate and only
home on the week-ends. I miss him. The Boys miss him. The dog misses
him. We miss him.
It's
not the empty side in the bed or the empty chair at the dining table,
but the realization at the end of the day that he's not going to walk
through the door with his usual, "Daddy's home" .
I
always nervous every time Mr. Hubby has to go away. I have this acute
paranoia that I can't sleep the whole night until early morning. I will
hear every noises and my imagination will go wild. I know it's
pathetic but I can't help. I just have to live with it. Usually on the
forth days I will crash and sleep through the night. And the next day
the cycle will begin again.
Being
a single parent when he's away it's not easy for me. Boys after school
activities is one thing, I have to drop one boy here then get to drive
to another place for the other one. Then the homework that I sometimes
feel like it's my homework rather than the kid's! Not to mention the
argument I have to sort out about who is going to have shower first or
the dog has been fed yet, forms from school that need to be signed,
sport carnival to attend, and all the different dramas that can happen
in my household.
When
he's away I sometimes think about all the single parent out there and
how lonely those nights can be when you don't have someone to bounce
ideas off of or to make decision or to share the worries that had been
in the back of your mind. I also admire their strength, being a solo
parent is tough. I've got it easy compare to these women.
He
often asks me, "so you don't think you can cope when I'm away?" and my
answer is always the same, "well, I suppose I can, I have to, I have no
choice". I am okay but I don't like being a solo parent. I need Mr.
Hubby, I couldn't imagine doing this all without him.
xoxo
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